When I was 16, I held a knife in my hand, and a bottle of whiskey in the other, while I debated the best way to kill myself. Slice my wrists? Stab myself in the heart?
I was about to attempt my second suicide and needed the liquid courage.
As a child, I was sexually abused and beaten for over 10 years by my father and stepmother. My first suicide attempt was at age 9, 16 was my second. But the second time, as I was debating where to stab myself that would kill me quickly without suffering too much pain, I heard a voice inside my head say, “just hang on. If you can be strong and hang on for a little while longer, you will live the life of your dreams.” It scared the living shit out of me. I thought I was going crazy or that maybe the alcohol had gotten to me. But at the same time, I became obsessed. Obsessed with the possibility that maybe, just MAYBE, there was some higher power out there.
Ever since, I’ve been on a journey to figuring out who that voice was.
For the longest time, I didn’t realize that the voice, was really my Highest Self. The part of me that is connected to Source/God/Universe/Guidance whatever you want to call it. I use all those terms interchangeably. I always thought that if I ever heard God’s voice, it would be this deep, booming, Morgan Freeman style of voice. Can you relate?
Of course, I’m very well aware of what “it” was now, but that was the pivotal moment that really sent me on my journey to becoming a conscious creator.
As the years progressed and my manifestations became stronger, faster, and easier, I felt called to share with others my teachings. I denied this calling for a long time, until recently, when in my meditation, Guidance made it clear that it’s time. It’s time for me to share with the world, that if someone like me, who has a history of suicide, depression, drugs, abuse and so much more, can turn their life around and become this joyful and loving being who consciously creates her life….they (you) can too.
My life has been far from perfect. I’ve never had it easy. Until now. I've been studying the laws of manifesting and success principles for 10 years, but it wasn't until the past 5 years that I've mastered them and been able to create an entirely new reality. I really love my life! I love being a successful, mom, with a great income, awesome friends, a fulfilling career, and a loving relationship. I’ve healed my traumas, I’ve let go of my victim mentality, I’ve upgraded my life and now I live a first-class life.
I’ve gone through REAL suffering. The hell that I went through as a child and young adult, turned out to be a blessing as an author and coach. As a coach, I have so much compassion for whatever you may be feeling and going through, because I've gone through something similar. And so here I am, using my past, the obstacles I had to overcome, to show you that you too, can be a TRUE success and manifest the life of your dreams.
